Last summer on missions, we had a night when we went onto the rocks by the lake fill. I remember it was night time, so the sky was dark, Chicago in the distance was a mush of small lights, and the waves were crashing against the rocks. I laid down on one of the rocks. I listened and stared at the stars... some I had to squint to see because light pollution is pretty bad. As I laid there, the line that kept coming to my head was --- come away with me tonight from the song by norah jones - which was weird. God serenaded me that night?
anyhoo, right now, that song is stuck in my head.
come away with me tonight...
come away with me
and we'll kiss on a mountaintop
come away with me
and i'll never stop loving you
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A couple of weeks ago, I watched the movie Enchanted (again) This time, I actually really liked it. It was a very stressful week -- I watched that movie TWICE within that week! and it literally brought joy to my heart. Maybe there is that hope in every one of us that -- that kind of innocence and naivete can still exist -- that not everything has to be seen through cynical eyes. My favorite part is when Nancy walks into the house and finds Giselle in a bath towel on top of Robert in his apt. She is furious and walks out. Afterwards Robert is angry and his conversation with Giselle goes like this --
Robert: You have created a completely unnecessary problem with Nancy that I now have to resolve. See the fact is I was just getting ready to take a very serious step forward.... A proposal, actually.
Giselle: (very happy) Oh!
Robert: Well, now she's got it in her mind that you and I...
Giselle: (gasped and exclaims bewildered) KISSED?!
Robert: (not knowing how to respond) uhhh.... yeah, something like that.
Giselle: (deeply sorry and sad) Oh no... (thinks a bit and says excitedly) You should sing to her!
Robert: Sing to her?
Giselle: And maybe that would reassure her of your affections! You need to rush to her side and hold her in your arms and then pour your heart out in a beautiful ballad. And then she'll know for sure.
=) I think true love is always like a fairy tale.
And we desire true love like that... but it is only the heart aches and the break ups and the pains that kill our hopes. and the more we live in the "real world" we begin to harden our hearts... and suddenly fairy tales are just that... fairy tales... they don't exist... when truly, deep down, we wish they did.
well, I do.
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I remember in G.K. Chesterton's book, Orthodoxy, he mentions something about fairy tales and how fairy tales always intrigue us, humans. I must go and re-read it.
Cinderella - is my favorite since childhood. And I truly think, it has played such a huge part in my childhood that it has shaped me into who I am today.
Beauty and the Beast - is my second favorite, very very close second to Cinderella. This one too, has shaped me.
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My mom also just told me that when I was young (when we lived in NY), there was one time when my dad was making milk for Chrissy to drink but he was mixing in water with the milk (to dilute it and "save" the milk -- even though we got the milk on food stamps because we qualified for welfare)... so when I was standing in the kitchen and saw that I said to him, "dad, don't mix water with the milk, if you do chrissy won't like it and she won't drink it". And to that, he slapped me, and my mom said I had a bruised face for a while, and he barely missed my eye.
=\ I do not remember... but I also suppress bad memories.
I'm sure that has shaped me too.
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